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My Past is Not My Present

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It’s not ok to take something that doesn’t belong to you.  If it’s not freely given, it’s not yours.  Women are people.  They have feelings.  Don’t treat a woman any way you wouldn’t want someone to treat your mother and your daughter.

I’ve dealt with my share of abuses.  Verbal, emotional, and physical.  Because of this, I am in a constant state of letting go.  Just when I think the pain is gone, that dark reminder creeps back up and almost paralyzes me.  Every single day, I become better than the day before.  I used to live in a constant state of fear and paranoia.  I was molested and raped for so long that I honestly thought that the only way to receive love from a man was to offer my body.  There were no feelings attached.  For a moment though, I felt important.  Then when the morning came, I was nothing all over again.  I became a willing doormat, a garbage receptacle.  To be cursed and told that I wasn’t good enough or pretty enough to be seen in public with my “man” was a small price to pay to have somebody in my life.  This is to be expected.  This is the best I’ll ever have.  I accepted infidelity.  That only meant that I needed to step up my game.  I needed to be the best ride or die chick.  I’m lame, so to be a part of that “crowd” I dabbled in drugs and heavy drinking.  Now I’m cool.  I separated the broken Sonya from the fun Sonya, so my life was one long unhappy party.  Clubbing, boozing, drugs, and sex with a huge smile on the outside while I was withering away on the inside.  I knew it wasn’t right.  That life never really had the right “fit”.  I always wanted more, but I was so crushed by LIFE.  And the worst part is, I was too afraid to tell anyone.  I didn’t want pity because I felt it was MY FAULT.  I didn’t want anyone to blame themselves, so I hid it for so many years.  I was such a castaway, so worthless, that death wouldn’t even accept me.   

And then I met the one man that had a lifelong desire to be my Ride or Die.  He noticed ME.  He looked beyond my facade and accepted me, right where I was, all grimy and disheveled.  He didn’t make me feel like an object, and He reminded me over and over and over again just how important I am to Him.  Just how much I’m LOVED!  I never felt whole, complete, until I accepted Christ.  I could just talk to Him about ANYTHING and He never judged me.  The best thing about my Father is that if I throw my garbage, my mess, my issues on His shoulders, He gives me the strength to lift my shoulders and to stand tall and finally be proud of being just me.  He validates me, so I don’t have to intertwine my soul with another and another and another to know that I am adored.  I’m so thankful for Him introducing me to His design.  I can’t knock His creation.

I often wonder how many other women feel this way?  Abuse is never okay.  You are worth so much more.  The only way to stop it is to call it what it is.  Rape.  Molestation.  Assault.  Emotional Abuse.  It’s all darkness.  Talk about it.  Ask your local church for assistance.  Go to the police.  Just know that YOU ARE WORTHY!  You have a purpose.  Enough is enough.

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Salt & Light

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ImageThis is a friendly TSL Update for our friends! Theta Sigma Lambda Christian Sorority, Inc. is in FULL BLOOM! We now have Colonies in Ohio, North Carolina, Chicago, Missouri, Tennessee, Mississippi- and hopefully by March, we will have successfully welcomed Maryland, Texas and  so many more!!! Our Brother Organization, Theta Kappa Iota Christian Fraternity, Inc. has now formed their founding line and will be coming forth this Spring! God has been so good to us!

There have been lots of updates in the organization; for instance- Per Our Executive Board: Our dues are now $50 per year! (((WOW))) We also have a new option of having 3 day weekend Training/Pledging Sessions! If you or someone you know are looking for a Sisterhood that will welcome you, love you, support your walk with Christ …AND help you discover your ministry so that you can begin working more effectively in the Kingdom… look no further! 

We have a National Training Session coming up in February! The deadline for interest forms are January 29th! Don’t miss out on this opportunity! Fill out an interest form so we can send you more information on how to become a member! 

Lastly, we are gearing up for our Conference that’s happening in May 2013 and we want to see YOU and your friends/family there! If you’d like more information on the events happening in TSL, let us know and we’ll put you on our mailing list! God bless you all and may God show you that you all are His Salt & Light!!!

Partner with Us in Making God’s Name Famous

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ImageAre you interested in joining a non-collegiate, Christian sorority or fraternity?

I’d like to introduce to you, Christian sorority, Theta Sigma Lambda – www.thetasigmalambda.com and the brother organization, Christian fraternity, Theta Kappa Iota –  www.thetakappaiota.com. The founders, are husband and wife, walking, talking, God Fearing, ministers of the Gospel.  

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The principles of the brother and sister organizations are ALL straight from the Word of God. If you need more information, please don’t hesitate to email me at sigmabetacolony@thetasigmalambda.com. There are budding colonies in EVERY AREA. Partner with us in making God’s name famous.

 

 

His Grace is Sufficient

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Sometimes we forget what God’s done and how good He is.  When life hands you lemons, you don’t always turn that sourpuss frown upside down and make lemonade.  We get angry, and say why me. We sulk and wallow in the dark abyss of depression, and when we get bored of that, then God becomes important to us again.  We start back studying, refocus our attention on what’s important then forget all about yesterday when things didn’t go our way.  Life becomes perfect again.  

It’s easy to focus on God when life is good, when there aren’t any trials.  But what about the times when it seems that everything you touch turns to dirt, when nothing ever goes right, when you lose what you loved the most? Can you trust the very one that promised to protect you even when it feels like He’s turned His face from you?

This makes me think about Paul and his plight.  Paul, once he was saved, suffered pure Hell.  2 Corinthians 12:7 And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure.  He dealt with so much suffering all in the name of God.  Right there, scripture tells us that one of Satan’s sneaky little imps made it his life’s goal to attack Paul on every side, in every thing.  The poor man couldn’t get ahead.  He begged God to relieve him of his thorn on three different occasions.  I know  he wasn’t a perfect man, he made a whole lot of mistakes, but come on now? No one should have to go through that much, right?  Right?  God answered Paul’s request in saying, “My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.” 

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His strength is made perfect in MY weakness.  His strength is made perfect in YOUR weakness.  His strength is made perfect in OUR weakness.  <<< we gotta make this thang personal 

God’s strength is at it’s peak when we are at our weakest point.  When life’s burdens are weighing your shoulders down and began pushing you to your knees, God shows up and shows out.  Think about it, as long as your hands are in the way trying to fix the problem, there’s no room for His.  He’ll step back and watch the loves of His life struggle until we get so tired and frustrated that we look up, tear stained cheeks, and say, “God, I need your help.”  And guess what?  He’ll listen. You are THAT important to Him.  

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